I'm wearing your shirt today - written a while ago

I’m wearing your shirt today. To put something on that was once right against your skin is the closest I can get to you now. I slipped it on with nothing else underneath and curled into a ball under my covers. I wear it like a dress. It's five sizes too large and almost comes down to my knees. You would smile at how ridiculous I looked. I smile as I bury my face into its folds and inhale.

To me, it's softer than satin and warmer than fur. It slides along my skin in the most sensuous ways; kissing my skin, tickling my body. There's only a slight trace of your smell lingering still, but enough to make me smile into the fabric. You're scent is soft and musky. My fingertips imitate the path your fingers would follow, along my chin and down my neck, speaking to my senses and whispering secrets. My lips would in turn whisper my own secrets against your ears. My secrets. Our secrets. My stomach tingles and I attempt to turn my thoughts away.

I miss you. It's been more than six months since I felt your lips on mine. Six long months of longing.
Of absolute torment.

Aching. That’s the word I chose to describe what I feel. I’m aching to feel my hand in yours, aching to slide my fingers across your face, the face that has been chiseled into my definition. My body is aching to be close to you. It’s reaching for you, begging for you. My lips are aching to be kissed and my waist is aching to be held. I close my eyes and tangle my fingers into my hair, imagining they were yours. Playfully tugging, stroking...

Pulling the covers over me, I wrap my arms around a pillow. I imagine your arms circling me, your warmth engulfing me and I'm not alone anymore. I can almost feel your breath against my shoulder and I can most hear your soft snoring against my back. I close my eyes again and I can smell you. I'm not alone any more. I can hear you whispering, your voice heavy with sleep, "I'm here now, love. I'm here now." I'm crying in relief, in utter relief. I'm not alone anymore. I can almost feel your fingers sliding against my waist, sliding and slipping...

And I open my eyes, still very cold.

And still so very alone.

Yours,

A

Wore to church.

Excuse the dirty mirror and room, I've been crashing in my sister's room

Tomorrow's agenda:

-thrift & shop

-walk the dog <3

-hem the dress from Old Navy

-work on new collage for room

A. Just A.

Je suis A.

I'm new to Blogger and I'm just testing the waters a little bit. I haven't exactly become a pro yet on how to use everything and it might take a little getting used to. I'm used to other sites such as Xanga, Facebook and Myspace. I just wanted to try something new.

I'm nineteen years old and a soon to be sophomore in college. I live in a fairly large city with plenty of diversity. I, unfortunately, live in my house with my parents and kid sister. It wasn't a choice I made easily. With dorm life costing more than 9k, I thought it was better to tough it out at home and public transportation. Every time I want to strangle someone in the house, I think about all the money I'm saving. No loans, No loans, No loans! I'll be writing about college life.

I love a good book and a good cup of coffee. There's a certain appeal about sitting in a Starbucks and just curling up on a chair and reading. I love bringing my lap top along. Sometimes I can crank out a good amount of work. I feel like I can get a lot of work done in a different environment other than my house. Or that could just be related to my aversion to my house. Ha. I'll be writing on what I'm currently reading and I'd love suggestions.

I love fashion. I love trying to predict what's going to be IN next, although I don't really follow the trends. I am, however, always looking to expand my wardrobe for as little money as possible. So, I'll be writing about that especially.

What else is there about me?

Ah. The boyfriend, S. I'd like to proudly say that I've been with S for over... six years now, which I think is a feat considering how old we are. Right now, my dear S goes to school in one of those big UCs over on the West Coast. Updates on our relationship is probably something that will come up frequently.

But stay tuned, theres more to come!


Yours,
A